dr. appts ruin my life..

i have been having trouble with my body for some time now...i dont know if everyone knows but last year in April i had to go to the dr for a kidney infection. i ended up finding out that i only have one kidney (born that way) and the one kidney that i had had the infection in it.. very bad news that day...so now ive been going to the doctor because they never fully fixed the problem. i have been having blood in my urine (too much info) and they dont know why. so now ive had to miss classes because this is a very huge health problem that could kill me. i hate missing my classes! im getting left behind. my professors dont care. some say that if i had an appointment made then its not an emergency. if only they knew. i had 2 doctors appt this weekend on friday. one was the obgyn doc and the urologist. the urologist appt was no big deal but now i have something wrong with my ovaries. so now i have another test this friday..i have to miss more classes. i dont know what to do. should i wait so that i dont have to miss classes but could become more ill by waiting? or miss my classes and have to retake them just because health is more important. im so stresses out about this and it doesnt help my problems! if the doctors office was open on the weekends then that would solve all my problems!

Freewriting...

i havent really thought much about what i wanted to revise for my portfolio yet. it is another month away so ive been trying to prepare myself for the upcoming homework for this and next week. i have so much to think about when it comes to other classes that i get so stressed out. i dont understand what Mr. McArdle said about thinking about the essay that i would revise and turn into the portfolio. i thought that we had to write and revise all of the essays and choose one of the inclass essays. i dont really remember any of the inclass essays that well. i will have to reread them again to refresh my memory. usually the third inclass essay is the better one for me. that is what happened last semester. i did ok my first essay then gradually got better by the last one i wrote. i cant remember when the portfolio is due. i believe that it is April 29th so i will have about a month to think about which inclass essay that i want to do. my essays that i wrote about were about eating disorders. i had to write one about stating a problem and then i had to write another one about how the problem could be solved. both of the papers came out good. i dont think that i have to add much to them just go through the comments that people have made and edit alittle of what they believe needs fixed. they said that my problem paper was to informative. i dont know how to change that. if i didnt have all that informative information in there then my paper would be only about 2 pages. i dont know how to state a problem in more than 3 paragraphs without it being to informative. its almost so easy to say "eat some food and dont become anorexic, bulimic or anything like that." the problem could be easily stated-"people that dont eat normally have an eating disorder and they need help." i dont know how to go on and talk about the problem in 4 pages unless i go through the information that people dont know about the eating disorders. and it is so hard not going into solving the problem. maybe i picked a bad topic that was too hard to discuss. but i cant think of anything else that i would know that much stuff about.
it is very stressful. i think that i am just way to stressed about everything that is going on with my life right now. i dont know what to do about it. i try to talk it out to people but that really doesnt solve any of my problems. oh well i guess that i am going to have to live through it. it will all be over sooner that i know and my life will be great as new. i just need to get my studying and grades up so that i dont have to worry about retaking classes next year or having to have more stress built up in my mind.
to end this free thought i would like to say that today was not a good day to ask me to write down what was going through my head. i have a million things going through my head that i dont even want to talk about but they are mostly not good. oh well i know that everything will be ok

Course Goals...

ENGLISH 102 COURSE GOALS
1. Yes, i understand the foundations of rhetorics visually as well as testual. everything that we go through is very understanding to me.
2. everything could be considered different to different audiences. i do understand that.
3. i understand different effect strategies to different learning styles. i have my own way of learning about situations.
4. using logical fallacies is very easy for me to avoid using.
5. using text on the media is still very confusing to me. i am learning slowly but surely.
6. i understand that i have to use more than just the primary research to all the situations that i use. i need more than just primary research on the rhetorical situations.
7. i have tried to become more critical about what others write. it is hard for me to be more critical about stuff that i have no idea what it is.
8. i have done my best to be very professional when it comes to other people's writing. i agree that they should know how i feel towards their writing and how i think it should be changed to sound better.
9. i take full responsibility for my work.
10. i think that i work very well with other people on composing tasks.
11. i think that i do a good job on putting a variety of topics on my four writing assignments.
12. we havent completed the portfolio yet but i did last year and i know what it is that i have to do.

ENGLISH 102 COURSE CONTENT & FORMAT
1. i try my best to discuss, analyze, and respond to a variety of texts in class and outside class too.
2. i love to get peer feedback. i feel like because they are my age they have alot of interesting things to share about my papers that i could use to fix my paper.
3. when i write my draft and i get feedback from my peers, i like to fix it write away on my draft papers. i like to write on my drafts when i have peer feedback, instructor comments and teacher-student conferences.
4. i do complete my writing assignments before i turn it into being my complete portfolio.

UNIVERSITY CORE CURRICULUM GOALS
1. i believe that i have lifelong education by acquiring knowlegde.
2. i believe that my knowlegde is college level.
3. i know my personal values very well and i respect others personal values.
4. i try my best to seek solutions to common problems. all the solutions that i have could just be temporary.
5. i feel like i do work well with others to solve life's common problems.
6. i feel like i try my best to fulfil my life long goals and interests.

break is over :(

i am now at ball state. i returned really early this morning at about 9:30. i didnt have to but my ride had to be at work at 11 at lafallette. my vacation was so short and boring. i didnt get to sleep in but maybe twice because my sisters were still going to school every morning and i share a room with one of them. i had doctors appt at 8 in the morning on monday. spring break was not what i wanted. i went shopping, i got a pair of pants and a shirt but i wanted more. lol. i did get to spend everyday with my boyfriend and some of the days with my girl-friends. i didnt fight with my mother which is unusual. i guess the reason it was so boring was because i didnt get to do anything exciting and fun. i just sat around and did nothing all day long. i just am making sure that im going to start saving money for next years spring break vacation. :)

busy week before spring break

i think that i have a busy week before spring break. some people think that they have a worse one. i agree. but all i know is that i have no time to breathe either.
YESTERDAY (MONDAY) i took all mondays off. i dont work anymore on mondays so i feel better about that. i tried to do all my homework in biology this day. i thought that i got it all done.
TUEDAY (TODAY) i went to bio class this morning and it went ok. i came home and found out that the homework that i did yesterday messed up and now i have to do more research on that. i got another email saying that our projects due in English are now only going to be done by anthony and i. this is going to be difficult. i have one more class today and then i work from 4 til 8 then i have a meeting in my hall at 8:30. my friend came from back home and wants to hang out. i dont think im going to have time to eat. :(
WEDNESDAY is the busiest day of the week for me. i use to have 4 classes this day starting 10 til 4. but i dropped one class. my bio homework is due this day. i work from 4:30 til 9 so its going to be another busy day. 10 til 9 ill be busy then i have to do homework that night. im always exhausted on wednesdays.
THURSDAYS are usually my relaxing days. my boyfriend sometimes comes over. i dont know if he will this week seeing as i have a test at 10pm this day for my sociology class. i could change it but i dont really want to do any studying over the break. it is supposed to be done on the tuesday we get back. doing now will be smart seeing as i dont work on thursdays.
FRIDAY is the day i get to go home!!! :) my bff is taking me home after english class. she gets out of class at noon and i have to wait til 4. :( but we get to go to ihop for dinner!

im sooooo excited for break. only thing is- i dont get to go anywhere because i have doctors appt. all break. only thing i get to look forward to doing is sleeping and hanging out with my friends. :)

one more week til spring break

i cannot wait til next friday!!! spring break is so exciting for 3 reasons...1. its freedom for one week! 2. i get to go home and see my family and friends that i dont ever get to see when im here. and 3. sleeping in. :) i cant wait to sleep all day and stay up all night! 5 more days and counting! :D