horrible feeling...

let me tell ya, i had the worst weekend of my life..everyone knows my bf had to leave on Tuesday for bootcamp. well, turned out that i had to say goodbye on Monday instead. it was horrible. just out of the blue. crazy emotions came over me. I was with his father, brother and his brothers wife and ive never seen any of them be so sad either. I cried for hours... around 11 that night- i got a phone call from him!! :D i guess his dad brought him his phone and he could have it that night. he called me tuesday while he was on the bus to bootcamp and i havent heard from him since. i dont think bootcamp will let him have a phone. :'( i miss him sooo much. i havent been able to eat or sleep like normal. i feel like my best friend just up and left. i have wrote him 2 letters 2 pages long each. and i wont be able to mail him until i get his address which will prolly be in about few weeks...i cant wait until i get the first letter from him. i hope there not killing him. :/ i miss him so much. i cant wait until i get to see him in July! :D im counting down the days!!

the worst weekend of my life so far...

this weekend is the last weekend with my boyfriend until he comes back in June. i am not happy about it! i am going home with him and staying with him til i take him to the airport on monday. i feel like i am going to cry my eyes out and never want to leave his side. i have never had anyone in my family or anyone that i know leave for bootcamp/anything army wise. i dont know how to handle it especially when it is my boyfriend! i hope that this weekend is a memorable one and i know that its not the end of the world but i feel like 2 months is a very long time and its only the begining. he is gone for 2 months, back for 2 weeks, gone for another 4 months, back for a month, then sent away to either iraq or somewhere over seas! :'( hopefully they decide to post him in the united states!! please god! it is finals week soon. my birthday is may 6th. my summer is going to be not any fun without my boyfriend. i have been dating him for almost 3 years. i dont remember what summers like without him. just tell me everything will be ok!

finishing up the semester....

Biology: thank god i got my essay done for biology!! it was a 5 page research paper that i felt like would never end. the most boring thing that i had to do about earthworms. now for that class, i need to focus on memorizing the body parts of a frog. Uggg... that seems impossible for me!!
Sociology: i have notes to do and i dont have any more exams in the class besides the final. it is an inclass final which is different from all the other finals. hopefully all my past tests will help me with the final seeing as its cummulative.
Philosophy: this class is really easy. i love this class. i have nothing to do except for my final and i already have it. i just have to get the writing done and i can turn it in any time i want to before the set date.
English: there is so much revising that i have to do in this class. i feel like all ill be doing is rereading the same thing over and over again. i know what i have to do, seeing as i did the same thing last year, i just feel like it is just as stressful...

sis's volleyball....

this weekend my youngest sister had a volleyball tourney in michigan. we had to get up and leave at 6:00 sat morning because it takes 2 hours to get there so i fall asleep on the way there. we get there and the whole team shows up and not all of them have the same shirts on. it is illegal for teams to wear 2 different colored shirts on. that was a big deal but there was a bigger deal that happened...the teams coach was sick and they didnt have another coach to coach them! oh no!! Fin is the coach that was supposed to show up. well after freaking out, he shows up and hes freaking out. says he drove all the way here and his wife needs the car he drove. its got thier kids baseball stuff in it. so he asks me- can i drive his car all the way back to indiana and back? HAHA i slept on the way here! i dont know my way...so he told me that i had to coach the team! omg! omg! i have never coached in my life! never! i didnt know what to do! so i had them run and do some volleyball stuff but i couldnt think of anything very good. i didnt know what to about line ups..i have never seen this team play so i dont know what their positions are. i was soo nervous.. i had the parents on my side and they were helping me. the kids were nice too. i did my best to play equally. we won! i was proud!! then i realized that i had to ref the next game. i have never never ever did that before. i didnt know what to do! i was freaking out! meanwhile all the parents were upset that thier child had to be this one player that didnt get to serve or only got to play front row...i was sick of all the complaints! i was not worried about that...and it wasnt my fault that the girls were to irresponsible not to bring both thier shirts. no matter what, i couldnt change the way we set up the court...so i had to ref the first game then Fin showed up and took over. thank god!! the parents quit complaining because they know they cant say anything about it. Fin is the high school coach and this is the junior high volleyball team so he didnt know the team either. so i still had to be the assistant coach. i had so much fun. i made the line up and was pretty much the boss. that was such a good memory! :)

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best and worst Thursday ever!

today i had a test in biology. i HATE biology! the test was the hardest one so far this year. i didnt have time to study as much as i wanted to because i had another test 2 days before in my sociology class. i had to work both the 2 days that i needed to study. but my boyfriend loves me because he came and suprised me today and hes here!! that makes it the best thursday ever!!

~*Riley Kitty*~

i got a new kitten this weekend!! :D

it is a long story but its soooo funny to me....

it starts out this saturday...my boyfriends dad, bf, and i go to the grociery store. next door is the pet store and if you know me- i love kittens!! LOVE KITTENS!!! so i went in and held one and loved her and wanted her. his dad says "no cats! i hate cats!" :( he was happy that i was happy tho.

come home and we had to go shopping for houses for bf's older brother and we went to go get ice cream. got too much and no one wanted to eat the large icee. i had a blizzard to begin with and i was full. dad says "u eat all this ill buy you a kitty" thinking that i would have never finished it. it was huge!! guess what i downed that thing! i wanted a kitty!!!

he kept saying that he was going to get me a stuffed kitty and not a real one..we pinky sweared that i would get that kitty at the pet store..i said i want that orange and white one with a pink bow and everything.

bf and i had to leave for dinner for other family members-

come home and there is that kitty sitting on dads lap! pink bow and everything!! shes is adorable!!

my mom wont let me have one-so i have to keep it at his dads. bf is leaving for boot camp so i have to come over during the summer and visit my kitty and see his dad too. i think that was his intention. that family loves me! and i have my very own kitten!! :)

what a weekend...

my weekend was one of the most emotional and crazy weekend that i think that has hit me in along time...it was not as bad as one week in February but this one is all about me...the doctors appt on friday didnt come out to well. it is not that big of a deal now but if the asist grows then im going to have to have surgery. i get to finish school out with no dr. appts interupting me anymore which is good. i just have never had that much info hit me at one time. that was some of the crazy emotional part that i wish was not going on with me...i went to the movies with my bf and his friend and him are in a fight about how they choose their girlfriends instead of eachother..it was a fight that i wish that i wasnt involved in...what a weekend...

dr. appts ruin my life..

i have been having trouble with my body for some time now...i dont know if everyone knows but last year in April i had to go to the dr for a kidney infection. i ended up finding out that i only have one kidney (born that way) and the one kidney that i had had the infection in it.. very bad news that day...so now ive been going to the doctor because they never fully fixed the problem. i have been having blood in my urine (too much info) and they dont know why. so now ive had to miss classes because this is a very huge health problem that could kill me. i hate missing my classes! im getting left behind. my professors dont care. some say that if i had an appointment made then its not an emergency. if only they knew. i had 2 doctors appt this weekend on friday. one was the obgyn doc and the urologist. the urologist appt was no big deal but now i have something wrong with my ovaries. so now i have another test this friday..i have to miss more classes. i dont know what to do. should i wait so that i dont have to miss classes but could become more ill by waiting? or miss my classes and have to retake them just because health is more important. im so stresses out about this and it doesnt help my problems! if the doctors office was open on the weekends then that would solve all my problems!

Freewriting...

i havent really thought much about what i wanted to revise for my portfolio yet. it is another month away so ive been trying to prepare myself for the upcoming homework for this and next week. i have so much to think about when it comes to other classes that i get so stressed out. i dont understand what Mr. McArdle said about thinking about the essay that i would revise and turn into the portfolio. i thought that we had to write and revise all of the essays and choose one of the inclass essays. i dont really remember any of the inclass essays that well. i will have to reread them again to refresh my memory. usually the third inclass essay is the better one for me. that is what happened last semester. i did ok my first essay then gradually got better by the last one i wrote. i cant remember when the portfolio is due. i believe that it is April 29th so i will have about a month to think about which inclass essay that i want to do. my essays that i wrote about were about eating disorders. i had to write one about stating a problem and then i had to write another one about how the problem could be solved. both of the papers came out good. i dont think that i have to add much to them just go through the comments that people have made and edit alittle of what they believe needs fixed. they said that my problem paper was to informative. i dont know how to change that. if i didnt have all that informative information in there then my paper would be only about 2 pages. i dont know how to state a problem in more than 3 paragraphs without it being to informative. its almost so easy to say "eat some food and dont become anorexic, bulimic or anything like that." the problem could be easily stated-"people that dont eat normally have an eating disorder and they need help." i dont know how to go on and talk about the problem in 4 pages unless i go through the information that people dont know about the eating disorders. and it is so hard not going into solving the problem. maybe i picked a bad topic that was too hard to discuss. but i cant think of anything else that i would know that much stuff about.
it is very stressful. i think that i am just way to stressed about everything that is going on with my life right now. i dont know what to do about it. i try to talk it out to people but that really doesnt solve any of my problems. oh well i guess that i am going to have to live through it. it will all be over sooner that i know and my life will be great as new. i just need to get my studying and grades up so that i dont have to worry about retaking classes next year or having to have more stress built up in my mind.
to end this free thought i would like to say that today was not a good day to ask me to write down what was going through my head. i have a million things going through my head that i dont even want to talk about but they are mostly not good. oh well i know that everything will be ok

Course Goals...

ENGLISH 102 COURSE GOALS
1. Yes, i understand the foundations of rhetorics visually as well as testual. everything that we go through is very understanding to me.
2. everything could be considered different to different audiences. i do understand that.
3. i understand different effect strategies to different learning styles. i have my own way of learning about situations.
4. using logical fallacies is very easy for me to avoid using.
5. using text on the media is still very confusing to me. i am learning slowly but surely.
6. i understand that i have to use more than just the primary research to all the situations that i use. i need more than just primary research on the rhetorical situations.
7. i have tried to become more critical about what others write. it is hard for me to be more critical about stuff that i have no idea what it is.
8. i have done my best to be very professional when it comes to other people's writing. i agree that they should know how i feel towards their writing and how i think it should be changed to sound better.
9. i take full responsibility for my work.
10. i think that i work very well with other people on composing tasks.
11. i think that i do a good job on putting a variety of topics on my four writing assignments.
12. we havent completed the portfolio yet but i did last year and i know what it is that i have to do.

ENGLISH 102 COURSE CONTENT & FORMAT
1. i try my best to discuss, analyze, and respond to a variety of texts in class and outside class too.
2. i love to get peer feedback. i feel like because they are my age they have alot of interesting things to share about my papers that i could use to fix my paper.
3. when i write my draft and i get feedback from my peers, i like to fix it write away on my draft papers. i like to write on my drafts when i have peer feedback, instructor comments and teacher-student conferences.
4. i do complete my writing assignments before i turn it into being my complete portfolio.

UNIVERSITY CORE CURRICULUM GOALS
1. i believe that i have lifelong education by acquiring knowlegde.
2. i believe that my knowlegde is college level.
3. i know my personal values very well and i respect others personal values.
4. i try my best to seek solutions to common problems. all the solutions that i have could just be temporary.
5. i feel like i do work well with others to solve life's common problems.
6. i feel like i try my best to fulfil my life long goals and interests.

break is over :(

i am now at ball state. i returned really early this morning at about 9:30. i didnt have to but my ride had to be at work at 11 at lafallette. my vacation was so short and boring. i didnt get to sleep in but maybe twice because my sisters were still going to school every morning and i share a room with one of them. i had doctors appt at 8 in the morning on monday. spring break was not what i wanted. i went shopping, i got a pair of pants and a shirt but i wanted more. lol. i did get to spend everyday with my boyfriend and some of the days with my girl-friends. i didnt fight with my mother which is unusual. i guess the reason it was so boring was because i didnt get to do anything exciting and fun. i just sat around and did nothing all day long. i just am making sure that im going to start saving money for next years spring break vacation. :)

busy week before spring break

i think that i have a busy week before spring break. some people think that they have a worse one. i agree. but all i know is that i have no time to breathe either.
YESTERDAY (MONDAY) i took all mondays off. i dont work anymore on mondays so i feel better about that. i tried to do all my homework in biology this day. i thought that i got it all done.
TUEDAY (TODAY) i went to bio class this morning and it went ok. i came home and found out that the homework that i did yesterday messed up and now i have to do more research on that. i got another email saying that our projects due in English are now only going to be done by anthony and i. this is going to be difficult. i have one more class today and then i work from 4 til 8 then i have a meeting in my hall at 8:30. my friend came from back home and wants to hang out. i dont think im going to have time to eat. :(
WEDNESDAY is the busiest day of the week for me. i use to have 4 classes this day starting 10 til 4. but i dropped one class. my bio homework is due this day. i work from 4:30 til 9 so its going to be another busy day. 10 til 9 ill be busy then i have to do homework that night. im always exhausted on wednesdays.
THURSDAYS are usually my relaxing days. my boyfriend sometimes comes over. i dont know if he will this week seeing as i have a test at 10pm this day for my sociology class. i could change it but i dont really want to do any studying over the break. it is supposed to be done on the tuesday we get back. doing now will be smart seeing as i dont work on thursdays.
FRIDAY is the day i get to go home!!! :) my bff is taking me home after english class. she gets out of class at noon and i have to wait til 4. :( but we get to go to ihop for dinner!

im sooooo excited for break. only thing is- i dont get to go anywhere because i have doctors appt. all break. only thing i get to look forward to doing is sleeping and hanging out with my friends. :)

one more week til spring break

i cannot wait til next friday!!! spring break is so exciting for 3 reasons...1. its freedom for one week! 2. i get to go home and see my family and friends that i dont ever get to see when im here. and 3. sleeping in. :) i cant wait to sleep all day and stay up all night! 5 more days and counting! :D

working weekend

i have to work from 9:45am til 1pm on every other weekend. it drives me crazy!!!! i hate having to get up so early on the weekend. i just wish i could sleep in. last semester i worked every other weekend on saturday at 6pm til 10pm. and i kinda liked it. it was in the middle of the day but at least i could have slept in. i cant wait to go back to my dorm and sleep the rest of the day off! :)

the crazy weekend....

since my boyfriend and i have has some crazy bad past 2 weeks, we got better and i went to his house and it was the most awkward moment of my life. everyone (his friends that live with him) used to love me then they all hate me. but my boyfriends dad and brother love me still and took me out to eat and movies. we had a blast but it was one of the most craziest feeling weekend with my boyfriend ever. now im back at bsu and i have 2 huge tests this week. i have a study session tonight and a 3 hour one tomorrow. its going to be crazy!!

writing in other classes...

i have a 1000-1200 word essay due tomorrow in my philosophy class and it is something that i wish we could have the same kind of work that we have in english class. i want to be able to have other students read it and give me suggestions about how to fix it or add more to it. i know they have the writing center but i always feel embarressed to go and have someone else read my paper. im very shy about having people read things that i write. hopefully i get a good grade in this class and hopefully my philosophy proffesor will love my essay.

outline of paper #2

Intro: thesis- While it is all very mental and some physical, having these eating disorders are a very serious and life-theatening experiences that need more attention and needs to be solved.

Body: 1. convincing someone who has an eating disorder that they have an eating disorder and that they need help.
2. helping someone with Anorexia
3. eating orders being treated with Anorexia
4. helping someone with Bulimia and other eating disorders.
Conclusion: getting help for someone with an eating disorder cannot wait. it needs to be taken care of now!

thesis of paper 1 and paper 2

paper 1 thesis: Families are struggling by trying to help their loved ones with their disorder and I don’t believe that this problem is getting the attention that it deserves.


paper 2 thesis: While it is all very mental and some physical, having these eating disorders are a very serious and life-threatening experiences that needs more attention and needs to be solved.

busy week

this week is a very busy and stress-full week. i had to do a biology test on tuesday. that was a something that i never want to do again. the essay #2 is due by Friday and i have no idea how to write a solution with a length of 4 pages. it is so simple: the solution to a eating disorder that i could put it on one. i also have a huge test on inQsit on Sunday. i really want to go home this weekend so that i can take my tv home because my roommate has a better tv we can use. i just feel like my week has been very busy. its not just tests that are getting me. its work being in the way of study sessions. everytime there is a study session i have to work and i cant go. i cant just call off work. i have to get someone to work for me and its impossible because i have the busiest hours there is. my week is just stress-full.

Log #3

Monday Jan 26
we did peer reviews with our classmates. it was like every other peer review but it was our first one of the semester and our group members changed (at least mine did) it was different but in a good way.

Wednesday Jan 28
we didnt have classes. SNOW DAY! :D

Friday Jan 30
we went over intensive review papers. both anthony's and amy's papers were very important problems that need to be discussed and solved.

new roommate (weekend)

so i could go on and on about the story about having a roommate and then not having a roommate then getting a new roommate but not seeming like it is going to be a new roommate. ect. its confusing and stressful. all last week i felt as if i was the only one stressing about having a new roommate. but it turns out that i think that i am going to like her. she seems pretty cool. she is supposed to be moved in by 4 tomorrow (monday) but i dont know how shes going to bc i have class and i have to work. she seems like she is a huge procrastinator. everything that has happened is only because i did it all! but hopefully everything turns out ok.

thank you for smoking

i really enjoyed this movie. it was funny and understanding. i understood why we watched it in class, the arguments were very interesting and funny. i would loved to keep watching movies in class.

first week of classes

i have much harder classes this semester than last semester. last semester i had all my classes all in one day but this semester i have them spread out. i dont know if i like that. i feel like i dont have any time to do anything. i have to work half an hour after my last class ends and i dont get out til 8 then i have to worry about eating. its crazy. but ill just have to get used to it.