horrible feeling...

let me tell ya, i had the worst weekend of my life..everyone knows my bf had to leave on Tuesday for bootcamp. well, turned out that i had to say goodbye on Monday instead. it was horrible. just out of the blue. crazy emotions came over me. I was with his father, brother and his brothers wife and ive never seen any of them be so sad either. I cried for hours... around 11 that night- i got a phone call from him!! :D i guess his dad brought him his phone and he could have it that night. he called me tuesday while he was on the bus to bootcamp and i havent heard from him since. i dont think bootcamp will let him have a phone. :'( i miss him sooo much. i havent been able to eat or sleep like normal. i feel like my best friend just up and left. i have wrote him 2 letters 2 pages long each. and i wont be able to mail him until i get his address which will prolly be in about few weeks...i cant wait until i get the first letter from him. i hope there not killing him. :/ i miss him so much. i cant wait until i get to see him in July! :D im counting down the days!!